May the 4th be with you

Worst night sleep ever, didn't know what to do with myself, up and out of bed constantly throughout the night. Just not gonna be able to sleep on my back :(
So spent the day with a constant headache due to lack of sleep. Hopefully will be overtired tonight that I just pass out.
Still no pain, just still uncomfortable with the cast causing pressure on the nose.
If asked to go through this again ...

No

No

No!

Day 3 post op.

Made it to day three, not that it was that hard to get here.
Had no pain at all, not taken any pain meds. Came home with a big box of codeine but do n't really wanna get off my tits flying about the house on that stuff.
Can breath slightly throughout left nostril but right side still totally blocked with swelling and that's the side constantly running with bloody snot.
Nice!
So other than dry lips and a very sore throat, did I mention sore swollen very sore throat.
Thinking maybe now the decision not to mention I had a slight cold to the hospital before might not have been a good choice.
Not really sure how much to clean in there so just running a cotton bud soaked in warm water round the inside. Mmmm bliss.
That and the ice packs every 2 hours, might be easier to stick my head in the freezer.

Got bored with snooker, listening to Kylie, she always makes everything better. :)

Quick quick quick

PS came to see me this morning ... Think they must have been in the room less than a minute :/ tried to keep asking things but obviously they were in too much of a hurry to be elsewhere.
All I managed to get was , yes it's very bruised, not as bad a some tho. Put some arnica cream on it. Tried ... TRIED. ! To get your nose straight but may go back to one side again.
FFS. this is why I wanted septoplasty aswel.
Bit of a downer that.
Well everything I have done at my choice. No 1 else to blame ... Is there ?

Done !

Laying in my hospital bed , 2 black eyes. Aching nose. Can't believe it's happened. Only took just over an hour.
Was taken to theatre at 1300 woke up in recover about 1430
Was having such nice dreams aswell.
Should do this more often. Best sleep I've had in ages.
Probably all the drugs pumped into me.
No going back now.
So so hungry. Nurse is bringing me some toast !

Toast !
I need pizza n ice cream !
So gotta keep the cast on for 2 weeks. That's gonna kill me waiting to see the results. Good job. Bad job. Arrggg

Excited.com

Sat on the train on my way, new nose here I come !!!
This time tomorrow will be tears either happiness or horror, can't wait to find out.

'twas the night before...

Eeeep!

The phrase I need is - I'm shitting bricks !

Would have been a nice touch if my HMG nurse had rang or txt to say good luck, but then this is HMG, I'm not surprised.

Hoping for some sleep tonight, up early tomorrow for the 4 hour track to Manchester.

Still ill

Had a small panic attack today, or I presume it was, I did come over all funny n sick feeling realising my op is only 2 days away!

2 days

OMG

Still have a small cold, sore throat, can't decide now if that's the stress of what I'm about to do or I really am ill.
Maybe it's all the extra vit c
Or the arnica
Or a sign...
Having visions of arriving at the hospital for them to say no! Your too sick! Go home.
It's not helping with the stress levels or sleeping.
Maybe talking to someone about it might help, but as I have told no one .. Even lied to my stepdad who's picking me up that the op I'm having is a small nasal op to help with my breathing.
Nothing major.
Nothing major at all...
Only person who understands me is my cat!

Delete Delete Delete

So about 4 hours ago I posted to the blog ---

""So hate hate hate my pictures now, Am I going to blog these pics....

Now sat here with my finger over the publish button.. So so difficult

So here we are and why I'm having surgery, Just 1 look and the points are obvious.

Bumpy, Asymetrical, Pointy arrrrr :(

Hoping my PS can do what Im hoping, 3 days to go and still having doubts.

Maybe I should just be happy with the way I look,

Maybe.

But then again with a thing like that stuck on my face, its not going to happen!""

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maybe this time next week I will have the confidence to post them and keep them posted.